So here I am in East Lansing Michigan, enjoying an evening with friends an a nice home cooked meal thanks to Sara trying out a new recipe.
I made Easter cookies, have eggs to devil in the morning/afternoon. And tomorrow I will wake up and go to church, enjoy a fantastic Easter service in what is sure to be a more full church than normal. I will sing, I will pray, I will greet the lovely people I have meet in the past 2 years.
But then I will go home- or to my apartment and be alone. Sure I might Skype into Easter morning with my family but its not the same, sometimes I actually think it might be worse than just not knowing, or think that a letter would be better- more romantic for my English major soul. Skype hurts because you can see them but not hug them, you can speak but not truly be heard, you can sit at the table but not partake in the meal and you can love them and not have them understand how much. And yet I would miss Skype if I suddenly didn't have it, aren't I annoying!
It makes me wonder how many Holidays I will spend alone in my lifetime, and by alone I mean without my family either the one I have now or the one I hope to create someday. This will only be holiday #5 alone total in my 24 years so really that's not bad. Being me though I apparently need more to worry about than another cross country move and grad school.
Easter is an amazing holiday that essentially proves to me miracles happen. Is it sad that every holiday I secretly hope my family is coming to surprise me? Silly and childish- I know someday if I ever get the chance I will surprise my children who are far away.
No matter what I will do my best to make this Easter special, fun and filled with joy. Everyday is a gift as my father likes to say, and I believe Easter gives us a very special one. Happy Easter if you Celebrate!
Boston!
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